Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Fill Your Plate

"Man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord."  Deuteronomy 8:3

I think the Lord is so funny sometimes (that's okay, right?!?).  I've wanted to read Deuteronomy for some time now, so I began reading this morning and came across this verse.  It is no coincidence that I read this verse the day before Thanksgiving...the day before I will be filling my plate with lots of bread...and other yummy foods.

Heavenly Father, I am THANKFUL for Your Word.  Your Word is truly "a lamp to my feet and a light for my path" (Psalm 119:105).  It is Your Word, Your Promises that give me hope for my future no matter what circumstances I may be facing.  Please help me to fill my plate until it is spilling over with Your Word each day of the year.  In the mighty name of Jesus I pray, Amen!

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Heaven is the Face

"I will go to him, but he will not return to me."  2 Samuel 12:23

Oh how I love the new song by Steven Curtis Chapman, "Heaven is the Face."  I briefly heard the song a few weeks ago (enough to draw tears, not enough to remember every word) but today I had the chance to let the lyrics soak into my heart.

Many times since my daughter's death I've said something along the lines of "I can't wait to get to heaven to see Alysa again, to hold her in my arms again."  While that statement is absolutely true, this past year my desire has become that I would long for Jesus the way I yearn for my daughter.  Jesus should be the reason I can't wait to get to heaven...not just my beloved daughter.  I want to love Jesus THAT much—that seeing and being with Him is what I look forward to...and that seeing and being with Alysa will be a bonus.  But as a mother, that's a tough stance to take.

It seems Mr. Chapman has put into words exactly how I feel.  The first part of "Heaven is the Face" reads,

Heaven is the face of a little girl
With dark brown eyes
That disappear when she smiles.
Heaven is the place
Where she calls my name
Says, “Daddy please come play with me for awhile.”


Chorus:
God, I know, it’s all of this and so much more,
But God, You know, that this is what I’m aching for.
God, you know, I just can’t see beyond the door.
So right now...

Just as David so confidently claims in 2 Samuel that he will go to his son one day, I firmly believe I will spend eternity with my daughter Alysa.  It is something I look forward to in the Kingdom of Heaven.  And I think that is okay.  God understands the desires of my heart...He made me.  But I challenge myself to fall so much in love with Jesus that I look forward to spending eternity with Him even more than I look forward to spending eternity with my daughter.

Lord, I know Your Kingdom is far beyond anything I can imagine.  Being surrounded by Your loving arms will be enough for all of us, no matter what trials we have endured in our earthly life.  But in my weakness, and maybe even in part selfishness, I can only relate to seeing the face of my precious child again.  Help me realize Heaven is all of this...and so much more.  Place an unquenchable desire in my heart for You because without You, I would not have the hope or promise of eternity with Alysa.  Surround me by Your love now; draw me nearer to You now, until I see...

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

WWJD?

“As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.” James 2:26

Okay, so maybe the trend of wearing WWJD (What Would Jesus Do) apparel has long since faded…it is still a powerful question to ask yourself.

Now when I speak of doing something in the following paragraphs, please understand that by no means am I implying that salvation is based on acts. The bible clearly teaches that, “It is by grace we have been saved, through faith—and this is not from ourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works” (Ephesians 2:8-9). I am referring to acting out the Christian faith through love for our brothers and sisters.

I came to the sad realization yesterday that often times, when faced with the chance to do something, it is actually easier to do nothing. When faced with an opportunity to give of yourself, to put yourself out there for someone else, to share your faith with someone or to lead a group of people, it’s easy to shy away.

Satan fills us with excuses and self-doubt. “I don’t have time.” “I don’t know enough to teach a class…what if I begin to slip in my own walk with the Lord?” “I’m not sure how to really reach someone in need.” “Why would God want to use me?” But none of these excuses hold-true for a person of faith. Philippians 4:13 reads, “I can do everything through Him.” Do you believe He is enough? Will you let Him be enough?

In the Great Commission, Jesus calls us to be His hands and feet; to go to the ends of the earth (Matthew 28:16-20). “It is God who works in us to will and to act according to His good purpose” (Philippians 2:13). It was such a huge relief for me to learn (through a bible study titled Experiencing God) that God is not waiting on me to dream up nice things to do for Him. No, He is already at work. God wants to reconcile a lost world to Himself much more than we do. He works through us to accomplish His purposes. Are you available for His use?

Again you say, “I don’t know how.” Just ask. Ask the Lord to open your eyes to see how or with whom He wants to use you to impact the Kingdom. Ask Him to help you overcome your own unbelief (Mark 9:23-24).

I know. It’s easier to do nothing. I could have not written this blog... Lately, we’ve been experiencing trouble with our internet connection (hoping to get this resolved today…and now it has, hence this post!). As I turned on my computer this morning to write I could not get on-line. I could have done nothing. It was 5:20AM. I could have very easily headed back to bed. However, I knew I would regret not capturing the thoughts floating around inside my head. I don’t always know if or how these entries make an impact, but I trust that God has laid these thoughts on my heart and mind for a reason. So I act out of obedience to Him. I wrote this blog the old-fashioned way: with my real bible (vs searching an online database of Scripture – www.biblegateway.com is a good one) and a word processor.

As we near the season of giving, don’t hesitate to give of yourself. The gift of your time, your talents, and your love will go much farther than anything you can buy at a store. Let us strive to act out all year long what our faith commands us to do—“To love the Lord our God with all our heart, soul, strength and mind, and to love our neighbor as ourselves” (Luke 10:27). The next time you are faced with an opportunity to be His hands and feet consider, WWJD?

More importantly, what will you do?

Friday, November 6, 2009

Rejoice In Suffering

"Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope." Romans 5:3-4

Rejoice in suffering...sounds good in theory but it is oh so hard to do in practice. However, I have recently been inspired by two different families who have held strong to their faith in spite of their sufferings. These families - like many others - have chosen to praise God's name in the midst of a storm.

The faith of these individuals demonstrates their unfailing love for God. 1 John 4:18 reads, "There is no fear in love." They are able to trust the Lord because they know, remember and believe “that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him” (Romans 8:28). They know that because of their faith, they will be “more than conquerors through God who loves us” (Romans 8:37). Loving and trusting the Lord in times of plenty is easy...well, sort-of. But praising Him when life gets tough?

A few days ago, I received a text from my mom. She was sharing with me something she had read on a church marquee: "One moment in God's kingdom will pay for it all." Faithful followers of Christ are able to see past their "light and momentary troubles" because they know something greater awaits them through their faith in Christ. "It is by faith you stand firm" (2 Corinthians 1:24).

1 Thessalonians 5:11 reads, “Encourage one another and build each other up…” We are “mutually encouraged by each other's faith” (Romans 1:12). Hebrews Chapter 11 is full of examples of faithful followers from the past. But I have, and want to express my sincerest appreciation for those who are standing firm in their faith now because it encourages all of us in the hope that we as believers have for our future.

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Pride

"If you're going to blow a horn, blow a trumpet for God."  1 Corinthians 1:31 (The Message)

Oh how pride is one of those messy issues we'd rather not deal with!  It is certainly something God has placed on my heart more than once as I've prayed for Him to "Search me and know my heart; point out anything in me that offends You" (Psalm 139:23-24). 

A thought came to me as I meditated on the Lord this morning: pride stems from a lack of understanding. 

If I truly understood God's sovereignty; His reign, His power, His mightiness;

If I truly understood that it is the Holy Spirit who works through me, who empowers me to do God's work;

If I truly understood that, "From Him and through Him and to Him are all things" (Romans 11:36) or that "By Him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by Him and for Him" (Colossians 1:16),

there would be no issue of pride. 

If I boasted, I would boast only in the Lord (1 Corinthians 1:31).

Heavenly Father, please forgive me for all the times I have attempted to take credit for Your works.  Help me to realize that "apart from You, I can do nothing" (John15:5).  Help me to surrender myself to you daily so that Your power and Your glory may be revealed by the Holy Spirit working through me.

Monday, October 26, 2009

Q&A

"Your road led through the sea, your pathway through the mighty waters - a pathway no one knew was there!"  Psalm 77:19

Psalm 77:19 is a glorious reminder of God's ways.  He often plans a path for us which we didn't even know was there; and that is why we are called to walk by faith.

I read Psalm 77 during my quiet time this morning and if you are unfamiliar with this Psalm, I hope you will allow me the grace to summarize...

The Psalmist is crying out to God, feeling as though he has been forgotten by the Lord.  He calls out in distress; he can't sleep; he can hardly pray; he remembers good times in the Lord and questions where God is now that he really needs Him.  The Psalmist spews a string of questions; questions which mirror the doubts I had about God after Alysa passed away.

I began writing a blog titled "Q&A" nearly one year ago after the release of the song "Yours" by Steven Curtis Chapman.  In his song, Mr. Chapman sings that he’s “walked the valley of death…and questioned everything that he’s believed” (referring to the death of his beloved daughter in May 2008).  For some reason, I never finished my thoughts.  But when I read Psalm 77 this morning, I was reminded of the questions I had for God after I traveled through the valley of death, watching my own daughter pass away in my arms.

Tragedy often causes us to question our faith.  Sometimes, this can be the scariest experience of all—questioning everything in which you’ve ever believed. It can be especially frightening if you can’t find the answers…or worse yet…don’t even know where to look. I pray that this topic will be the premise of another book.  But for anyone questioning their faith now, let me share with you where I netted out a few years ago in my own Q&A session with God.

Q – How could God allow this to happen? Where was God when our twins became sick? When Alysa died in my arms? Was my big good God not as great and as mighty as I once thought? Had I slipped His mind? Had He made a mistake? Was He not in control?

As a woman of faith, I believe that God is always in control. But I questioned how my big, good God could have let these tragedies occur in my life. I had always believed that God wanted good things for His children, for those who believed in Him. So when tragedy stuck my life, I was instantly thrown off course. I could not comprehend how these heart wrenching events had been allowed to happen to me. I wanted to believe that God had made a mistake—but the God I knew didn’t make mistakes. I questioned if He was really in control—but the thought of God not being in control was more than I could bear.

A – The bible reads, “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the LORD, your God, and I am with you” (Isaiah 43:2, 3, & 5). Psalm 121:3 reads, “He will not let your foot slip—he who watches over you will not slumber.” Psalm 139:16 reads, “All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.” Hebrews 13:5 reads, "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you."

God never promised that life would be easy. In fact, in John 16:33, the bible says just opposite, “In this world you will have trouble...” But He promises to be there, “…take heart! I have over come the world” (John 16:33). The truth is God is always there! The circumstances surrounding our twins are the events He ordained for me. But this truth wasn’t enough…selfishly, I wanted to know more...

Q – Why did God allow my daughter to die?

A – I believe I will never fully understand in this lifetime why certain things happen (see previous blog entry!). However, I have discovered and accepted that God has purpose in every event. Romans 11:36 reads, “Everything comes from God alone. Everything lives by his power and everything is for his glory.” I may not like the fact that my daughter passed away, but knowing that God has purpose in it brings me peace. Am I mad at God for having purpose in my daughter’s death? I was, but God has done so much for me, first, in my salvation through His Son (which should have been enough for me, but sadly, it wasn’t) and second in giving me hope after my daughter passed away, that I’ve learned to "love the Lord my God with all my heart, with all my mind, with all my soul and with all my strength," as Jesus describes as the greatest commandment in Mark 12:30. I love the Lord so much that I see it as a privilege for God to use me and my life and my circumstances for His glory.

Q – Was it my fault? Was God mad at me? Did I do something to bring this upon myself?

A – John 9:2 describes a time when the disciples questioned Jesus, "Rabbi, who sinned, this man or his parents, that he was born blind?" Jesus replied, “Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life.” It wasn’t my fault. Our experience played out so that the work of God Almighty might be revealed in our healing, in our coming to know Him, in our proclamation of His truths!

Q – How would I ever overcome Alysa’s death? Could I ever be happy, live greatly again?

A – I was familiar with scriptures such as 1 Corinthians 2:9, which reads, “no eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him,” but I saw no way for goodness to return to my life after Alysa’s death. However, I eventually realized that if I wanted all the “good” things I’d read in the bible to apply to my life, then I had to accept everything I’d read; I had to believe in the author of what I’d read...I had to believe in God.

Rom 8:28 reads, “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him.” It doesn’t say in some things, it says in ALL things. I couldn’t make sense of things, so I had to trust God to hold true to His promises. I had to accept Alysa’s death and trust God to pull me through. Trusting God instantly brought me freedom. It wasn’t up to me anymore to figure things out. It was up to God. Surrendering to Him, turning to Him for answers brought me peace…and allowed and encouraged me to trust Him more. God used Alysa’s death to draw me into an intimate relationship with Him.

Ephesians 3:20 claims that God “is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine.” And He is! But He does it “according to His power that is at work within us.” You must trust and believe Him in order for His power to work within you.  Mark 8:35 reads, "Only those who throw away their lives for my sake and for the sake of the Good News will ever know what it means to really live.”  It's true.  Only since learning to live His way have I begun to truly live!

I don’t know what each of you may be going through. I can’t give you all the answers.  But I can lead you to the truth. In Jeremiah 33:3, the Lord says, “Call to me…” It says to call Him, ask Him, question Him, scream at Him if you must…just go to Him. And then He says, “…and I will answer you” – He’ll answer you! – “and show you great and mighty things that you do not know.” Seek Him. Trust Him. Learn to love Him. Let Him lead you down the “pathway you didn’t even know was there” and "show you great and mighty things that you do not know!"

Monday, October 19, 2009

You Can't Fit God in a Box

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways."  Isaiah 55:8

When trials are brought upon us in life, so often there is a natural, burning desire to know why.  Why me?  Why this?  Why now?

I have been guilty of this type of questioning on many occasions.  After Alysa passed away, I was plagued with questions of "Why?"  Most recently, a friend called with devastating news, and I found myself, in an attempt to consol my friend, trying to explain away her circumstance.  "Maybe it was because..."

Isaiah 55:8 reads, "My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts, and my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine" (NLT).  When I seek to answer "why" questions, I end up conforming God, limiting God to my way of thinking.  The audacity of me, to think that I could possibly even come close to understanding why God allows certain things to occur in His world!  I praise God that He does NOT think like me!!  As my children have come home from Sunday School chanting, "You can't fit God in a box!"

A wise soul once suggested to me, rather than asking "Why?" ask "What?"  What does God want to do through your circumstance?  God's number one desire is for us to know Him intimately.  So for starters, realize that God wants to reveal something about Himself to you.  The Creator of the universe wants you to know more about Him.  I would never have come to know God as the great Comforter had I not experienced a situation in which only He could comfort me. 

Lord, I pray that you will forgive me for trying to fit You inside a box.  Sweet friend, you know who you are.  I do not pretend to know why some things happen.  But you and I both know this...

"In all things God works for the good of those who love him" (Romans 8:28).  “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5).  You can "Come to Him, all you who are weary and burdened, and He will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28).  "Call to Him and He will answer you and show you great and mighty things that you do not know” (Jeremiah 33:3).  And last but certainly not least, "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him" (1 Corinthians 2:9).